2019 seed decisions

i have narrowed down what i will be growing in 2019.

every year the winter is for mapping out and planning, which seeds need to be grown out to save more. staggering maturity to avoid cross-pollination, companion planting, sun tracking. covering all of my bases to ensure a successful year on my side, working with mother nature and her mood swings.

below is what i’ll be growing this year from seed.



japanese black trifele new to me! excited to grow it.

costoluto genovese new to me! our favorite type of larger tomato

purple bumblebee

pink bumblebee; my saved seed

green vernissage

black vernissage; my saved seed

peacevine cherry; my saved seed

white tomesol

napa chardonnay blush

barry’s crazy cherry

speckled roman; my saved seed

raspberry lyanna; my saved seed

san marzano; my saved seed

heirloom costoluto mix; my saved seed


jimmy nardello; my saved seed

criolla sella; my saved seed

iko iko; my saved seed

aleppo; my saved seed

mini red bell; my saved seed

jalapeno; my saved seed

cayenne; my saved seed

peach habanero

baja pasilla; gifted to grow out

habanada; my saved seed

urfa biber; gifted to grow out


leutschauer paprika

corn and grains

country gentleman

japonica striped ; gifted to grow out

double red sweet corn

job’s tears; my saved seed


pusa asita black

scarlet nantes

little finger




tropea lunga/red long of tropea

noordhollandse bloedrode

heshiko bunching onion


bedford monarch (BG closed in 2017)

half-long guernsey

harris model

hollow crown

turga; from my saved seed (BG closed in 2017; my seed origin)


hamburg rooted parsley

southern giant curled mustard

yellow seed mustard

cumin; gifted seed

dill; my saved seed

fenugreek; gifted seed


pokey joe cilantro

st. john’s wort; gifted seed

austin’s okra; gifted to grow out

white vienna kohlrabi

cookstown orange eggplant

florence fennel


pink chinese

white chinese


tendergreen burpless cucumber

muncher cucumber



salad burnet; gifted with annapolis seed origin

sanguine ameliore lettuce

tom thumb lettuce

ice queen lettuce

black seeded simpson

jericho romaine; gifted with Renee’s origin

aichi nappa chinese cabbage

arugula; my saved seed

celtuce lettuce


rugosa friulana

gelber englischer custard

spinning gourd; my saved seed


meraviglia di venezia

beurre de rocquencourt

lina sisco’s bird egg; my saved seed

dragon tongue; my saved seed

empress; my saved seed


extra long seeded yard long; my saved seed kitazawa origin

mosaic yard long; my saved seed kitazawa origin

liana yard long

chinese python snake bean

fort portal jade

sunset runners; my saved seed

turkey craw; my saved seed


green arrow shell; my saved seed

blue double butterfly pea


cinnamon; my saved seed

genovese; my saved seed


lettuce leaf; my saved seed



thai sweet

zinnia also seeding in the cut flower garden and orchard


queen lime red

senorita pink

zinderella lilac

zinderella peach

poppy in yarden and around bee frames

brilliant oriental

hungarian blue breadseed

peony flowered mix

shirley poppy mother of pearl

thai silk pink champagne

other flowers most of these will be split between my yarden and the cut flower and butterfly gardens at the community garden

bachelor button


globe amaranth

bee balm




lark’s marigold; my saved seed



calendula; my saved seed

sweet mace


beni kodima

kaho watermelon

yamato cream watermelon


fuyu persimmon; saved from an organic orchard also for indoor growing

pepino garden berry for indoor growing

wasabi; gifted. i feel like i was challenged to a duel.

humbling hail

i say humbling. there are so many emotions as a gardener when you watch helplessly as hail rips through your garden. our earth mother is powerful.

one gorgeous august morning, i took pictures of my garden. everything blossomed and lush, the prettiest it has ever been.

that same august evening, i took pictures of my garden. everything broken. a lesson, perhaps. we gathered in silence and gasps and tears at the community garden. it was a funeral for our ego. a funeral for our eggplant, too.

garden corner

megacosm doom

my husband is regularly annoyed by the strict outdoor bans and enforcement that we have locally. there are always reasons for these enforcements, our climate and environment and natural habitats are changing. there are invasive species. mud snails. mud slides. cooties. drought.

restorative areas, no walking. mountain lakes, no swimming. private property, no trespassing. all of the regulating of our natural environment has led to nothing more than more regulation of natural play. as Richard Louv put it,

“For several decades, our society has been sending a clear message to kids and parents. Our institutions, urban/suburban designs, and cultural attitudes consciously or unconsciously associate nature with doom—while disassociating the outdoors from joy and solitude.

That lesson is delivered in schools, through families, even by organizations devoted to the outdoors, and has been codified into the legal and regulatory structures of many communities. Most housing tracts constructed in the past two to three decades are controlled by strict covenants that discourage or ban the kind of outdoor play many of us enjoyed as children.”

and with that.

sometimes we break rules and wade in cold mountain lakes, flip stones to inspect the armadillidiidae, pluck usnea from their host tree branches, and gaze at clouds on property that is not our own.

little raised fists

“seeds unfurl themselves and rise through the soil like tiny green fists,” Moyles writes in Women Who Dig. “These little raised fists, in fields and gardens across the planet, are for her, emblems of solidarity for women fighting for fairness, and for recognition of what so many women have been doing all along: the crucial work of being farmers.”


“the reason why a lot of people won’t become who they want to become is because they are attached to who they have been.” lisa nichols


into the fold

putting a kid in school is hard for me. hard because i've put my entire being into making sure she is awesome. that's the goal, happy kids who have abundant love in their hearts and want to share that love. sharing love through knowledge, talents, humility, and how they regard the earth, and how their just being a good person is important. 
my oldest, unfortunately, is learning that there are not so nice people out there that missed these basic elements to humanity. it starts early. it starts at home. 

i cannot protect her from the feelings she will have about these newfound truths. but i can teach her by example and love, how to act. 

"kids don't remember lessons, they remember moments. when we make education an experience instead of a checklist, it can be the difference between a lifeless and a LIVING education." -ainsley arment

a hot, beautiful june

my husband has been successfully calming my inner acreage spirit with building spaces for me to grow our food in our yarden. it started with a fence. then a beautiful raised bed in the sun. and then a ledge with ten 5 gallon buckets to grow my tomatoes on the balcony. 
my yard garden is the yarden, the community garden allotment is the garden. it keeps it less confusing in my garden journal since my memory is terrible. 

I have sowed and planted all there is to plant and sow until I succession plant and pull the garlic. that's a couple of weeks out, at most.

the garden looks amazing this year. so pleased. my allotment just looks like food to me. Growing what you absolutely love and think is beautiful is the key to a garden that you're excited about. and that is different for everyone! 
there is a woman that grows cut flowers and flowers to press. it looks wild and it's beautiful. there are the kale lovers, the squash growers, the tomato people and the garden in the weeds people. everyone has their garden thing.

magical answers

children have the magic ability to make you slow down. to view the world through a lens that contains questions and magical answers. 
growing your own food is one thing. 
but really being awestruck by a strawberry. 
being low and close enough to the earth to notice the balled rolly-pollies in the mulch. 
the color of anthers. counting how many petals are on a peeking chive blossom. 
that's the good stuff.


sometimes it takes children to cause you to stop and notice the details surrounding you. other times it takes a conscious effort. other times, it requires nothing but mindfulness. put your device down and look around and notice! 

six weeks out

you heard me! don't put those frost sensitive plants in the ground until that first FULL week of june. 
here is a link for an interactive average last frost date map for colorado. for once, i have found a true to the year frost date planner. 
the farmer's almanac still says may 15th. if you want everything to die a miserable black death, then listen to them, otherwise, first full week of june. 
then corn, beans etc get directly sown anywhere from the 10th-17th of june. 
just for good measure, here is a USDA zone hardiness map for colorado.

take time for yourself

the advice i hear a lot for myself, as well as for moms of small children is always to remember to "take time for yourself."
which i always smile and nod at. because i do not understand. and i thought about this more, and why i'm straight-up offended if it is suggested i be without my kids for a weekend day so that i can have a break.
a break from what, my kids? i don't want that.
what i have come to understand is that taking time for myself implies that there are two versions of myself.
and there aren't.

i have managed to create create a life with my children that allows me to be my full, whole self while being truly present for and with my kids.
the activities and interests i have are a part of my life, as part of my family.

my words, especially in this post are my own. my own thoughts on my own personality. this isn't a judgement on other personalities. this is my own, and what my understanding or resonance is with. 
for example, i could be totally 100% stoked to be a homesteader and for that to be my life. but i do not know a single other mama friend who could say the same. that's not their personality. it's mine. ;) 


today i have two quotes in my head (and poems floating around and silly words that my daughter says)

"how can a man hope to promote peace in the world if he has not made it possible in his own life and his own household?" wendell berry


"we are just imperfect people trying to help heal a broken world" ethan hughes, co-founder of the possibility alliance. 

the more that i truly focus on what i give to my family and my community, the more i understand how these threads of connectivity are woven from whatever loom i choose to put my energy into. 

and i must, absolutely must, focus my energy into doing good. 


"it's important to teach children that we're not reliant on the government or the corporate structure to eat." malik yakini

the right thing isn't always the easiest thing

something they want
something they need
something to wear
something to read

these are our guidelines for gifts in regards to our kids. even my husband has jumped on board with made in america and natural fibers and ditching fast fashion.
i didn't even feel the need to share the department of labor's report on child and forced (slavery) labor. the outrage is engrained once you see the bigger picture. 

our daughter while in the craft store was asking which materials were "not polyester" for the fabric doll we are making together. it's all of us learning. knowledge really is power. and researching cotton that was GOTS certified, where it was grown and more about that company is power. we have computers for access to information so we are informing ourselves.
and the more that i research the information in the book that i am reading, the deeper i get into my morals.

i feel this intentional responsibility to be aware of my place on earth. that i cannot exist separately on this earth from the workers in bangladesh who were crushed to death sewing for fast fashion. from the sterile husband who picked the banana in ecuador that sits to brown for bread on my counter. the child forced to pick the carnations in columbia for the big box bouquet. the thai fisherman who are stuck on slave ships for those peel and eat party shrimp in every single store. the use of palm oil in goddamn everything and trying to explain why we don't eat this food or that to a 4 year old is not always easy but doing the right thing isn't always the easiest thing.

when i wake at 4:30

when i wake at 4:30, i make a mug of coffee, find a spot in the house where a light won't wake my family, and settle into my brain dump, my book, journal and blog.
this morning's spot is in my daughter's room, she wandered out of bed last night.
and some mornings i get to do these things sans kid, though i got two sentences into this post and my little boy's missing mommy radar went off so now he's cuddling beside me.

i love these kids. i find myself completely 100% unable to yell at them. because yelling doesn't resolve any behavior or action. at most, it startles and scares kids, the opposite of what i want my kids to feel. i want to understand them. truly peaceful parenting is all-encompassing mind, body, thought work to develop a trusting relationship with your children. i have never felt understood when i'm yelled at or dismissed, have you?
but to have someone who loves you to squat down with a tiny version of yourself and ask first if you're okay, work through the reason a door is being slammed, why the kids are fighting, why he keeps grabbing things off the counter. all of these behaviors have a reason. kids don't do things absent-mindedly. adults do. and i am breaking that cycle with peaceful parenting to be sure my kids grow as conscious, loved and loving adults.

i have been very interested in the concept and research on transgenerational parenting. that is another post in itself. essentially, how you were parented is engrained in you. and to not parent the same way, a lot of conscious effort needs to be made to not create little broken people. because broken children become broken adults. we have enough brokenness in the world. enough pain. a beautiful, mindful life starts right here, with sleepy cuddly babies who love me.

i see you, mama

as a mother, i have come to notice that when people-all people-talk about how smart or articulate or loving my two children are,
the people comment as if these beautiful children were born that way. that they were born with words and reflection, counting and colors.
as a mother, i'm astounded at the lack of acknowledgement of a mother.
a mother who pours her being into her children so that they can make a difference.
a mother who stays home to nurture and be nourished by her children.
it takes a lot of a mother to raise children who are aware of the world around them.
it takes a lot of her children to raise a mother who is aware of the world around her.

mothers. our children didn't come into the world outside of us.
our children weren't birthed into our world with names for objects or numbers for fingers.

but our children were birthed into our world wanting to wonder and understand.
it is the mother, learning alongside her children, who blooms these qualities.
so, mama. i'm here to tell you that i see you.
i see you.


“it is hard work maintaining an appreciative and honest relationship with yourself.” -phoebe wahl.

seedy seedlings

it's so exciting to grow your food and flowers from seed! it also gives you the opportunity to grow, and therefore eat, what you really, really love! 
the biggest realization this year was that:
1- i really love basil. i am growing genovese, lime, cinnamon and thai basils from seed this year, with 20 4" pots of happy genovese. 
2- every year i'm annoyed at how long celeriac takes to harvest from seed, and every year i swear it off until i harvest it and get excited for another bout of growing it! this year i doubled what i started last year... 
3- having to make decisions between peppers and tomatoes is the worst. i want to grow all the things! 
the tomatoes that i have chosen to grow this year are:
raspberry lyanna
speckled roman (for paste/canning)
peacevine cherry (the link takes you to territorial, but the tomatoes i am growing are from my saved seeds)
a juicy red heirloom tomato from my favorite farmer and a mid-sized vine ripe, also from my favorite farmer. 

the peppers i have chosen to grow this year are:
jimmy nardello
criolla sella
jalapeno (from my saved seed)
iko iko pepper (also from my saved seed)
mini red bell and a red bell pepper. both from my saved seeds.


jarred and labeled. i'll keep one jar in the fridge for us, one jar in the freezer and the others are spicy little gifts.
the words "do you want some horseradish?!" to a gardener are usually met with the same wide eyes and inner panic as when someone says "do you want some zucchini?!"
but when you say you've prepared and jarred it they seem to be willing to give it a try.
horseradish root is great for building up some crappy soil, but good luck getting rid of it when you want to make room for something else.
oh! and the leaves make a delicious pesto style sauce, or can be pulled and left as mulch and overwintering beneficial bug protection.